Hi all,
This is a random assortment of notes. I am just soooo behind in posting that I feel like I just need to get it posted however I can at the moment. Forgive the chaos.
Bek sees the moon and we talk about how it's half instead of full and he wants to know "Mommy who cut it in half? Why dey do dat?"
Monthly Moms Night Out with my friends.
Best. Idea. Ever.
Rinat doesn't want to take a bath like a little kid anymore. He wants to get in and get out. There's no more splashing in the bath, playing with toys. And it makes me slightly sad. I really loved bath time. I loved the playing pretend with the animals on the side, I loved him begging me to take one with him, I miss the cute little kid-ness of it all. But still... he wants me to keep him company in there. If only to sit and read my book and listen to him talk and tell me about all those thoughts rushing around in his head. He showers with the curtain closed but talks to me off and on the whole time. He still craves me sitting/being close and I hope that stays for a while. Is it bad that I love to be needed in that way? I think it’s just that I feel the time slipping away already and it freaks me out. I want kid hood to last forever. But then I want to see how they turn out too. But so far, so good.
Mom, when did we get Pebbles? Umm..I dunno it was probably Jan 2? Ok then that’s his birthday. And the 3rd is his adoption day. We will make him a birthday banner and give him fish themed presents on those day. ‘Kay hon, we will.
Starting to consider sleepaway camp. I was never a camp person but there are people who think camp was instrumental in making them the independent and responsible people that they are now. And I agree to a certain extent. I think getting away from the parents and getting to make choices for themselves- and facing the repercussions of those choices- will give them a whole new level of responsibility. I get it. But the Mama in me wants to say WHAT?!?!?! Give up my babies into the big scary world without me being able to take care of them when they are sad or hurt or sick? Are you kidding me? But the truth is that they are going to be on their own at some point and I want them to be completely prepared for it and confident in themselves. I want them to know that they don’t need me. So I am doing it. I am going to let him go since he has been asking for literally years now. But good gosh is it going to rip my heart out to send him off on his own. If you people are smart, you’ll start buying stock in Kleenex because use is going to peak this summer.
Never-ending snow days that will add up to more school at the end of the year. Lots and lots of it. We moved out of Boston and now we have THIS? But it sure is fun. Rinat is trying to teach himself to snowboard.
Rin competed in the Cub Scouts Pinewood Derby. It is, of course, supposed to be a father and son bonding activity but it, of course, got pushed off until a couple of days before and so they worked on it very intensely for the few days before and got it done just under the wire. So off they went to the competition and… he got best in show. He came home buzzing with excitement and it was just so cute to see. I am hoping that he enjoys it just as much next year. And that maybe they plan ahead just a little bit.
Rinat told me he doesn't want to get married but just wants to live with his friends and go to the baby house to get his kids. Good plan. And this guy does love babies. Everywhere he goes he notices them and makes faces and talks about how cute they are. I think he'd love a million of them to join our family if it was up to him. Seriously, the more the merrier. And apparently Cousin Sam is invited too.
Bek tells me periodically, “You know what? You a cootie pie. My lub you.” M.e.l.t.
And that's all we got going on. Love to all, -m
